If I died,
what would you do?
Would you cry, scream, and blame me too?
If I died,
would you even care?
At my funeral,
would you be there?
If I died,
would you be mad?
Would you be furious
or would you be sad?
Would you want me back?
But even if you did,
could you help?
If I said I want to die,
would it be enough to make you cry?
If I asked you to do me a favor
and end my pain
could you bring yourself to do it?
Or would you refuse and run away?
Can pain really hurt this much?
Or is it all an illusion of my mind?
Is it possible for me
to just bury it all and move on?
Do I really,
as you say,
focus on the past too much?